I have been thinking about what is important in my
life. It has always been my family but
some of the things I want for them and I have changed drastically. I used to think we needed money to be
happy. I worked really hard to see that
my family had all the material things in life.
It took a lot of hard work to get these things. I worked seven days a week, long hours, on
call twenty four seven. I missed family
vacations, family outings, and sporting events.
I thought I was a
great dad, I really did. It took a divorce
to wake me up. My ex-wife told me that I
was not a very good dad; I was in shock I could not believe she could say such
a thing. I thought for sure she was just
trying to hurt me. So I called her on it,
I told her that was not fair that I was a good dad I worked hard for my boys
and loved them dearly. She told me that
she knew I loved them but I was never around.
I remember really thinking about this I cried for a long time I realized
I had not been there and material things did not cut it.
Well I have to say this is when my life started to really
change. I could not relive the past or
make my ex-wife change no matter how much I prayed. I learned as much as Heavenly Father loves us
he will never interfere in our agency. I
learned Heavenly Father loves me no matter what I have done and that I could be
forgiven. Church became a very important
part of my life. I realized it is the
time we spend with our family not the things we buy them that makes the difference.
My boys were really forgiving they joined me in church and
family prayers. Our lives were changing
for the better. Trevor decided to go on
a mission. The other boys became active
in other church activities. I was
starting to see through my spiritual eyes.
The spirit was so strong in our lives.
I had never really felt the spirit like this. I wanted to feel it all the time. I was told it would even get stronger I could
not comprehend how this was possible I was already feeling like I was on top of
the world.
I prayed all the time Heavenly Father was with me
continually. He helped me through the
tough times and the good. I felt so
blessed but I was missing not having someone to talk to and share all these
amazing things.
Then I was blessed to meet an amazing woman Michelle (my
Pretty Girl) she is such a blessing in my life.
I know our Heavenly Father help bring us together. I gained an amazing wife and two more sons
that I love so much. I won’t lie there
has been some lessons and learning and I am sure there will be even more yet to
come.
I again am working a lot and am not home much because of
some choices we have made. I felt we
made these choices by praying and following the Spirit. I have had some doubt about whether we made
the right choices. After much pondering
and praying I feel Heavenly Father wants us to go through these trials for a
greater purpose. I believe he had work
for me to do in the places I have been and has work for me to do in the places
I am going. I also believe he is preparing
me and my family for things to come. I
don’t know what he is preparing us for but it must be important.
I have to admit I have had some difficulties the last while
but my faith is getting stronger not weaker.
I miss my family dearly and want to be home with them more than anything
but I also know I need to be strong and endure for as long as Heavenly Father
wants me to.
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