Well it’s been a crazy couple of months so much has
happened. I was working through Quality
Transportation; they were great people to work with. I had an opportunity to change things up and
work with my brother. I was really
excited about this; I really like working with family. This looked really promising. I could see a potential for this to really
take off. Between the two of us we had some older equipment. My brother had most of the equipment before I
got there. I was able to help out with a
trailer I pick up from a good friend of mine on low payments. We were able to do a little work with the one
truck and trailer before our work came to a standstill.
Well things did not work out as planed; the worked we had
planned on came to stand still. That’s
oil field for you. We tried a few other things
without much success.
I was getting quite concerned my bills were piling up and I
had no income coming in I had used all my resources to survive these couple of
months; I had to do something else. I
was not sure what to do I know we needed to find other work but we needed
insurance and running money. I was
concerned about my family and my brothers.
I was beginning to think I had made a bad choice to quit
Quality. I started second guessing
myself; something I know I should not do.
I have learned to not look back except to learn from the past and use it
as a learning experience.
I knew I had followed the spirit to this point. I did what I knew I needed to do and that was
to pray for guidance. I got the guidance
I asked for but was not sure how or why I was getting the impressions I was
getting.
I had an impression to go look at a new used truck a Western
Star, so I did not knowing why. I had my
brother go with me. I asked him what he
thought he said he would buy it if he had the money. I guess I needed his reassurance even know I
felt Heavenly Father was directing me.
After driving and looking at this truck I set out to find a way to buy
it. After a lot of talking with Heavenly
Father I headed for Vernal for a couple of days. Without going into a lot of detail; I had no
idea what I was going to do. I spent the
night with my parents. The next morning
I drove through Vernal hoping something would come to my mind;
inspiration. I drove clear through
Vernal on the west side I pulled over and prayed. I was no more done praying when a name came
to mind of a friend of mine. I gave him
a call not sure what I was even going to say.
I told him what I was doing and he helped me. I was overwhelmed with the help I was
receiving and guidance from Heavenly Father.
I was not out of the woods yet I needed to find someone to
lease to. My brother and I had talked
with a company in Grand Junction but I had an unsure feeling. We my brother and I had talked about another
company in Vernal that might be a good prospect. So I talked with them and decided they were
the ones to lease through. My brother decided to hold off and try to make his
company go. I prayed he would be able to
make it work.
Everything was falling into place for me I was able to get the
truck I leased to a company that I thought would be the best. I was able to pick up a couple of customers
right off. I had a lot of good
prospects; I gave out a lot of my brother’s cards with his phone number and
mine. Explaining that we were working together but separate; I explained that I
had leased through this other company to get the insurance and support we might
need for certain jobs. All the
businesses I talked to were excited to use us.
I went right to work I was feeling like things were really turning around
for us. I felt my brother would get up
and running he is pretty good at doing the imposable. I was able to save a little on the truck by
paying cash so I could get my bills somewhat caught up at least keep the wolf
abbey until I can hopefully get some money coming in.
I got to tell you I was on cloud nine; I have no idea what
that means but have heard people say that when they are happy. I was working hard I had some really good
paying jobs. I had no time to get on the
computer to write on my blog or see what was going on in the Facebook
world.
One night I was knocked clear off cloud nine. I stopped for the night at a rest area where
I got fair service on my phone. I
decided I would take a minute and look at Facebook to see what was going
on. I read a post that concerned me;
someone in my family was upset with another member of their family. It did not even dawn on me that that member
was me until I got it through the grape vine.
I was devastated I had no idea that I upset anyone.
I still had a lot of work left to do I was running on not a
lot of sleep and now when I got the chance to sleep I could not. I was having a pretty hard time trying to
figure out what, how and why people I care about would think that I would try
and hurt them. The one thing about
driving truck is you have a lot of thinking time.
I should talk to these family members and see what is going
on but I got to tell you when it comes to people you love it’s not as easy as
it sounds. I am not good at talking
anyway. Just ask my wife she can tell
you how I am; I usually berry my head in the sand and hope it will get better.
I finally got done with my rush job and got to spend Sunday
in Vernal with my parents. My dad was
not feeling good. I could tell he was
hurting quite bad so I asked if he would like a blessing he said he would like
that. We talked him into going to the ER
and I knew he was hurting bad then because he was fairly easy to talk into
going. That’s not like dad he knew something was wrong. Turns out he is getting his Gallbladder taken
out. I was able to visit him before I
had to leave. I have a good feeling
everything will be okay with him.
I had a long talk with Heavenly Father last night and again
I thanked him for all he does for me and all the blessing he has given me. I asked him to bless all my family and to
help them any way he could. I asked him
what I needed to do about my family members that are upset with me. I have not got that answer yet. I guess sometimes he leaves it up to us. I hope my family knows how much they mean to
me and I would never hurt any of them on purpose. I pray for them all the time. I try hard to always do the right things and
follow the spirit.
Dad is home now and feeling better he needs to go out to the
VA to have some more work done but I know that will all go well.
I know our Heavenly Father loves us all and he knows are
struggles and accomplishments our heart aches and he listens to our prayers and
he dose answering them in his own way and in his own time.
