I did not write on my blog yesterday. I thought about writing for quite a while but
I started wondering why am I writing a blog?
What am I trying to accomplish?
How did all this get start?
I guess it all started several years ago but I dismissed it;
writing is just not my thing. Oh it came
around once in a while but I really did not entertain it much. About six months ago while I was driving over
the road I got an overwhelming desire to write.
It was crazy I never did well in English. I really don’t even read that much. I tried to blow it off but it just kept coming
back. I did not even know what I should
write about. I did start doing better
writing in my journal and I was writing long text messages to my family. That seemed to help ease this desire to write
for a little while but It was not long before
I felt that desire to write more. I
never had a feeling like this. It was
almost like when you get one of those cravings for something but you just can’t
put your finger on it.
I Figured I better consult with Heavenly Father; it was
driving me crazy. Of course I was
probably asking him the wrong things.
You guessed it I asked him to take away this silly desire to write. I was telling him all about how I hated
English in school and I mentioned to him about how I did not even read a full
book until I was in my late twenties.
Well it worked for a while then something strange happened
to me. I started making up a story in my
head. Now it started out as just random
thoughts and some old dreams then I started putting these thoughts and dreams
together and a story was starting to develop.
Soon it was all I was thinking about, this silly story. It was not a bad thing I was rather enjoying entertaining
it. I had the basic story all figured
out but I would change it up often. It
was all jumbled up in my head nothing was in order. That’s right; the desire to write started to
come over me. I could not deny it any
longer.
I stopped at a Wal-Mart got me a special note book just for
this story. I should have got several
note books I never knew it would be so difficult to take what was in my head
and write it down. This crazy desire to
write was so strong; I stayed up late most every night writing I would write
after church and even in the middle of the day on my lunch break. I would read it out loud and record it. Then I would listen to the recording and
start rewriting till it made sense.
It was not till I arrived home just before Christmas I was
able to get my writings on the computer.
This is when it started to come together. I could copy, paste and delete and yes I had
spell check. I worked on my story
thinking I would like to read it to the boys and Pretty Girl; my family would
all be together the day after Christmas and I had to work hard to have it ready.
I had a lot invested into this silly story, mentally and
emotionally. The time was finally here I
presented my story to my family and asked if they wouldn’t mind listening to
it. I knew I would not be able to read
it out loud without choking up; I told you I was emotional about it. I asked Pretty Girl to read it she done
great.
I had never written a story before; it was a personal
accomplishment for me. I felt relived the desire to write was gone it felt good
I thanked Heavenly Father for taking it away.
A few days went by and guess what the desire was back. I could not figure it out why me.
Well Pretty Girl had a blog My Kith, Your Kin, Our Family and I liked hers so I thought
maybe I could start a blog write in it once in a while and be okay. Well I started my blog January 4 2014 with
my story The Dream and 37 posts later.
So that’s how it all got started but what does it mean, why
do I have this desire to write?
I got thinking maybe I am seeking some sort of glory, recognition? I thought about it for a while I hope that’s not
the case.
It could be I need to learn?
There could be some truth to this I have learned so much. My spelling has become so much better; spell
check actually knows what I am trying to say now. I and the computer still
argue about correct grammar; this is a hard one because I want to learn but I
want to be myself also.
After putting way to much thought into this I have come to
the conclusion I don’t need to know why the desire is in me. I realize Heavenly father helped put that silly
story in my head to get me to write. I
don’t know why he wants me to do it but who am I to argue. I have learned so much and hopefully I will
keep learning. You want to hear the
funny part; I really am enjoying writing.
I have changed my prayer from asking to take the desire away
to helping me do better and of course I ask why he wants me to learn to write. I guess in time I might get the answers but
until then I hope you enjoy my blog as much as I do.
P.S. Thanks for reading and I welcome any comments or advise.